Struggling With Motivation

I think if this year has taught me anything, it’s that there can always be something else that goes wrong, or another wrinkle in the story. 

I can be talking on the macro socio-political stage or on the most personal levels of self-set goals, and you can bet that I will get an answer to my perennial question when starting a new course of action:
What’s the worst that could happen?

Now I don’t for one moment believe that the universe actually takes that statement as a challenge; it just feels like it. I just don’t let it stop me.

What has happened though is that my writing has taken a bit of a back seat recently. I’ve preferred instead to sketch and doodle. Quite a few of these I’ve put up on Instagram or Twitter, and links should appear on the Twit-Feed bit on the bottom right of this page when I do.

The appeal has been that it’s been more free-form, and hasn’t required access to a computer or other electronic device other than the camera in my phone. 
With writing I need to sit and type away and it feels like a lot of effort for something that has only been getting the occasional flash of inspiration.It hasn’t helped that my tablet seems to short out or drain it’s battery rapidly. I should probably get it looked at, but it’s not high on my agenda.

What has been topping my agenda instead has been caring for Lady M in what has been a year of downright misery, disappointment, and ill-health; and I just haven’t had the energy or motivation to do much else aside from lose myself in books, games and drawing.

What I hope to start doing more regularly here is at least review some of the stories I’ve read. I hope that keeping the site going on that front will kick-start me into writing properly again at least. I certainly need to find some form of motivation – I’m feeling pretty hollowed out.

Applications for muses will of course be looked upon favourably. You may need either a shovel to dig me up, or a firearm to keep pointed at my head though; the ember’s pretty dim right now.

About Tim Maidment

Writer, House Husband, Raconteur and Bon Vivant
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