It’s the end of my week, and I’m exhausted, but it’s more of an emotional exhaustion than anything particularly physical.
For the most part it’s concern for the people I manage at work and the unsettled period we’re in. Everyone is feeling under pressure, unsurprisingly, and I am trying to set boundaries so that I don’t burn myself out.
Don’t get me wrong, I am hugely enjoying the work and the challenges. I’m still trying to let go of the old one, and the urge to sort everything myself rather than letting my staff handle it.
Boundaries. They’re important. Damn hard work though.
A busy week, and moments of needing to go and have a walk away from the screen, but generally feeling positive today. That probably means I’m missing something obvious.
On the other hand, I seem to have started a new D&D game with some people on one of the Discord servers I’m on. There’s something about introducing new people to the game that really appeals, and so last night’s intro session gave me a wonderful boost. Hearing people have those light bulb moments as they got to grips with the potential of the game is always wonderful.
That’s probably why the work side of life today wasn’t as onerous as it might have been, spirits well and truly lifted
I got home today after an over-enthusiastic 40 minute walk back from work in the blazing sun to find a full mailbox and a stack of deliveries outside our door, all addressed to Lady M.
I may have quietly made some uncharitable noises while carting them all indoors before stripping off for a shower, even though they weren’t particularly heavy.
When Lady M got home, and we’d compared stories of wilting in the heat, and showered, she started opening them to find that they were rewards from an online conference that she had attended a while back – so there were some nice little things like new pillows, a favourite fragrance, some sunglasses, things like that.
All on all, a nice surprise at the end of a day of feeling grimy. Oh, and our XBox had finally given up the ghost in playing physical discs – not bad for a Day One XBox – so we managed to find a second hand replacement in an XBox One X. Favoured games are now being reinstalled…
Was a bit of a mixed day, first with taking Lady M to the hospital (nothing serious, a consultation and steps forward) and then back to supporting my staff as in theory the UK lifted more restrictions.
We’re keeping most of the safety procedures in place for staff and public safety, even as people are pinged to go into isolation. For the most part that’s simple enough, and everyone is rising to the challenged with aplomb and even the occasional bit of enthusiasm. Even the heat isn’t getting too much in the way. People are being sensible, by and large, or at least the ones dropping by are.
I’ve been working with partner organisations on a number of things today, so it has felt like a number of little breakthroughs and milestones have been achieved despite the heat – if nothing else each positive result made taking a cool drink afterwards feel like a reward.
Nice weather on a Friday? Oh good, that made for a nice lunchbreak, and then as good an excuse as any to go check in on one if the other sites that was having a few problems with their heating.
All’s well that ends the second week of the new job. There’s been more of a sense of moving with purpose and a team starting to cohere – with only the usual number of roadbumps along the way.
I also had a chance to check in on how my parents are doing by way of a conveniently timed phonecall – even with Tuesday’s news they’re in good spirits, and I was able to cheer my mum up with some anecdotes about current challenges. That was a nice interlude.
And now to the weekend. I’m on call so can’t do anything particularly outrageous tomorrow, but at least I can enjoy the sun on my balcony.
I worked more than a few extra hours over the last few weeks, so with a nod from the boss I claimed today back to recover a bit, and I’m glad I did. There’s some family stuff that landed yesterday, mostly related to people’s health, some of which is in the “eh, okay” pile and some in the “oh” pile.
So in between being shattered, I’ve also been processing that – and part of how I’ve been doing that has been making more maps. So that’s a bit of a good news/bad news thing: been an unsettling day, but here’s some creative stuff for your gaming needs.
Enjoy! I’ll stick them up in the respective gaming pages in due course
My number one response to people asking how the new job is going is to tell them that I’m tired, and that I currently have great difficulty tracking which day it is. This is largely because I haven’t worked regularly either on a Monday or indeed in a full time job for quite some time.
So, here I am with my body thinking its Friday night on a Thursday but with a reasonable sense of achievement. Nothing has gone horribly wrong, or at least nothing has gone awry that we haven’t been able to fix – the libraries are still open, and we’re gearing up for a Summer of interesting family activities.
There are always grumbles and hiccups, and I may have got a bit stressed from time to time at the beginning of the week, but so far so good. I’ve only had to call HR for advice once, on my peers for reality checks every other day, and the managers working for me are getting used to my calls and Teams messages with general aplomb.
I’ve got a training conference tomorrow. It’ll get me out of the office and I’m looking forward to escaping the timesheets for a few hours.
I was asked by someone on Monday if I was happy, and there was no hesitation in pronouncing that I am, very much so. I have a good life, am surrounded by good people – or at least interestingly awful if they aren’t classically good – enjoy my work, have creative outlets that earn a little money, and am loved in different ways by different people.
Next week brings new challenges, but then so dies every week. For the first time in a while though I’ve just consciously stopped to appreciate the good place I’m in.
I’m not going to do a series of “this is my last…” for the days of the week – it gets repetitive quickly. It is still dawning on me though that I’m basically now doing the new job and the handover is accelerating.
This is both wonderful and frustrating as there’s still that need to help people in between the rotas and negotiations and they’re all important things to be doing – and I’m now deep in the planning of my movements next week around various libraries to welcome not one but two brand new managers to their roles.
In more mundane news, I have a new xbox controller. It arrived yesterday, just in time for some football match that got Lady M and a number of people on the estate rather excited. I didn’t choose the colours with any more thought than “that’s nice” but it was a nice coincidence to have a win happen.
I’m not saying that there’s a certain degree of whimsicality to this week as we count down to the new regime, but I did manifest a new character while closing the parking bay gates this evening. Gentlefolk, I introduce The Grim Reader…
Yes, I know, i need to get out more… I probably shouldn’t be drawing all over the disposable masks either.
Still, as another weird transition day it seemed fitting, as I’m now doing more in preparation for next week rather than day to day front of house stuff, and getting my team up to speed. There’s a lot to do still, but for the first time it’s starting to feel like we’ve at least got a handle on the beginning of next week.